first i was a child running around in the sun, then i grew up & thought lots of depressed & cynical things,
which felt unbelievably tragic when compared to being a child in the sun. then at age twenty-one i miraculously
felt like a child walking around in the sun again. now i'm feeling strange & upset again, & the difference feels
about as tragic as the initial sequence of child-to-sad did. & now that it is all revealed as a fluctuation
instead of a linear process, i guess i'll just have to see how it continues to fluctuate