an alienatingly subjective description of how i try
to think about going from a bad mood to a good one

elementally ineradicable smiling sunny smiley faces are always right behind me, calmly perplexed by my strange
graveness, patiently waiting to step into view & welcome me back so that i remember things so deeply familiar
& pure that it will astound me that i forgot them even briefly, as if i had anterograde amnesia. i apologize
to them. it's completely insane that i forgot to smile when the cost is nil & the benefit is infinite

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